Something great happened to me today.

I'm sarcastic of course.

Today I was running next to Morgan. I knew something bad was going to happen, since Morgan never stays next to me. I was just about to start sprinting when Morgan trips me causing me to fall face first into the ground. It's even worse then it sounds too. I actually landed in the middle of taking a step so I landed while moving (in case you didn't catch that). I skidded on my elbow, scraping my elbow so bad it felt like the dirt was biting me. My legs sticking far out behind me, Morgan comes running a step behind and she trips on my feet, she falls head first too. Funny thing is, she was in the middle of laughing and pointing at me when she fell.

I love when Carma does my work for me.

OK so right now a fight is among us.

Well, not you, me. And for once it's not between my dad and mom, it's between my dad and HIS mom.

I forgot to add a secret to my last post,

43. Another thing that's wrong with my family, everyone thinks my grandma (grammy) is insane.

"IS THIS THE WAY YOU WANT TO END YOUR LIFE? YOU'RE 80 YEARS OLD! [fade out] I DO NOT HAVE A DRINKING PROBLEM!!! [fade out] WHY DON'T YOU JUST SELL YOUR HOUSE, AND STAY OUT OF EVERYBODY ELSES BUSINESS? [fade out] YOU DON'T CARE EITHER! IT'S LIKE YOU EXIST TO BOTHER PEOPLE!" ........ Oh, wow... "YOU DRIVE PEOPLE NUTS! OK! THAT'S WHAT YOU DO! AND WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO IS JUST RELAX!! [fade out] YOU'RE A LIAR! YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU NEED! YOU THINK YOU KNOW EVERYTHING! YOU DON'T KNOW *@#$!!!!"... OK sure she's a pain but she's not that ba-- "!@#$ @#$%!" ...

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DOT DOT DOT.

I personally don't think grams is that bad. I know she's a pain but this dang family doesn't know how to except how people are and MOVE ON!

But I have to say, she sent me an email telling me that my dad has a drinking problem, "he's allergic to alcohol like he is to scallops..." and, "you have to say to him, 'dad I think you've had enough'. He'll listen to you." But I didn't reply, "OH MY GOD GRAMMY YOU'RE SO WRONG!" because what would that do? Nothing. So I replied, "Love you too Grammy. Love, Emma". How hard is that?

And maybe dad has a problem but it's not a big PROBLEM. He controls it sometimes better then my mom.

But anyway I guess it's just something I have to except. And I am excepting it.

One thing at a time.

Things You Probably Don't Know

What's that? ^^^ up there? A TITLE? Since when!?!

Well, don't get too excited. It's just this time! I'm going to tell you all the little things that I don't think anyone knows... except I think Madie knows a lot of these...?

1. I never really learned how to play the drums, even though I'm in percussion...
2. I have a hard time making my hands look pretty
3. I have emotional issues... not really a flaw because I can't help it (pretty sure I should have a doctor for that...)
4. I get homesick a lot
5. I say I'm myself at school but I don't really know who "myself" really is
6. I've always been jealous of people who can play piano. Sure I quit but I actually PHYSICALLY couldn't play. My body fought it like a bad cold that wouldn't go away.
7. I've always found tea cups annoying
8. Who even really drinks tea in a tea cup?
9. OK that last one wasn't really a secret... (neither is this one.)
10. I've always had a secret desire to be an artist, but never told anyone because I suck at art
11. When I'm sick I insist on making people think I'm REALLY sick even if it's just a bad cold
12. I have a goal in life to never drink alcohol... TOO LATE!! Ha ha just kidding.
13. I wish I didn't have to hide myself from my mom because I think she might not approve
14. I don't know why she wouldn't approve, I just don't think she would.
15. Herbal Life doesn't really taste like anything I just like the thought, "I'm drinking a diet drink!"
16. I hate everyone of my friends except for Rachel
17. This is why I don't tell my friends about my blog...
18. I've always hated that thought of beer. The first thing that comes into my mind is middle aged fat hillbillies wearing shirts that only cover half of their stomach and have hairy HUGE stomachs. Just sayn'.
19. I cried at dinner last night. That was when I discovered that I have a emotional problem.
20. OK I knew before that but I was reassured last night.
21. I don't think I'm really the age I am
22. Ever read The Giver? His job aged him and I think my life has aged me.... but not my body... JUST READ THE BOOK.
23. I don't understand how parents don't "Have a favorite". How can you not?
24. When I asked my mom who her favorite was and if it was me she replied, "Well Emma, you're the youngest so you're special..." I never fond out if that was a good or bad thing...?
25. (this one isn't a secret it's just a fact) I met a famous author Friday night. She signed my book and told me to keep writing. Of course she's told millions of people that but OH WELL!
26. In my dream house it has a tree growing through it, glass floors that you can see fish through, and a library with thousands of books and shelves and one of those ladders that roll around of the shelves.
27. I love the show Hey Arnold! from the 90's-2000's
28. A book I think I'll always remember is Speak
29. A song I'll always remember is And I Love Her by The Beatles because I have memories of my dad rocking me in a rocking chair and singing it to me
30. I feel very protective of my dad ever since he had a concussion last year
31. I have absolutely no idea how to ice skate
32. This might be a good thing though, because if I ever have a boyfriend and we go skating he'd have to teach me
33. Hopefully this mystery man doesn't have temper problems...
34. I actually like Volly-ball better then tennis but I'm going to have to do tennis next year or mom and dad will be mad... even though I'm starting to really not like tennis
35. I don't hate tennis I just don't LOVE tennis like they think I do
36. My favorite fruit is a grape
37. Belly Buh-en.
38. They guy I like might be going emo and I really miss the old him... if he's even changed.
39. I really want a younger sibling, shhhh!!! It's too late now though... :(
40. I feel I was born to be a mother
41. After about 4th grade my face did this weird morph thing and now I look nothing like I did when I was little... I don't know if that's a good thing...? I think so...???
42. There's some things I can't even admit to myself in my head
43. I really like to write poetry and I hope to have a poetry book published
44. I'm going to write a memoir

That's pretty much it.

Ok, I'm really loving this whole new life I'm trying to live.

So yesterday... OK, before yesterday... I decided that I was going to try to be nicer to people. Not that I was a bad person or anything (crossing fingers... haha), it's just that since Morgana so evilly put me onto the list of mean girls in the school, I feel as though I should try to prove all the people in my grade wrong. I know, hold the applause.

OK so maybe it's not as genius as you were expecting. Oh well.

ANYWAY, so today I was working on it. Not gonna lie, the people in my grade don't make it a lot easier. "Sorry Emma I woke up late today. Time went right past me." Monica said after turning up late for Crossing Guard this morning. OH NO PROBLEM!! I'm perfectly fine standing here in the rain wearing this huge rain poncho with this horrible bright orange vest alone. No worries. Monica was supposed to be on the sidewalk by the school with me at 8:00 so the people that walk to school can cross the street safely. She turned up at 8:15. Only 10 minutes until we have to go to class. "That's OK! I know time goes by fast!" I tried to say. I don't think she could see my eyes though. Otherwise she could have seen them screaming, "I HATE MY LIFE!!!" So then I had to hear possibly the longest story I have ever heard in my entire life about her excuse all in monotone. Apparently it's too hard to show expression while talking. I swear. She doesn't even make her voice slightly get higher when she asks a question or is excited. Never.

But otherwise it's been going pretty well. I think I made a new....

Nevermind.

*Don't say friend Emma don't say friend. Acquaintance? No... more then that... buddy? No, that's lame... um...*

So now you know exactly how I think. Interesting? I THINK NOT! Ha ha yeah... I don't know...

*... Now what do I do...? OH I know! I'll go eat something!*

I'm swear I'm gonna get fat.

Today was my grandma (Besta's) 80th birthday. Everything was going fine, the dinner was good, no one was yelling yet, it was all good. So, after dinner my dad got out the cake, lit the candles and started singing, when a kodak moment is born. My dad, in mid "Happy Birthday" drops the cake. It was hilarious. Cake was all over the floor, on the cookbooks, everywhere. My first thought was, "Oh my god. There were LIT CANDLES on that cake!!" so I walk over, see that there isn't a fire, and burst out laughing! My mom leaves the room right away to go 'blow off some steam' out side. (I swear I could hear a faint F word from the mudroom.)

So I just thought I'd share that with you. My mom was pretty mad though. She hasn't spoken to dad ever since. I don't exactly get that though because it was an accident and Besta hardly looked upset. Ha ha!! As I told you, something always goes wrong... but this is a good kinda of wrong.

I'm so recording birthdays from now on.

I've been getting into the Halloween spirit lately. I decorated brownies with a powdered sugar spiderweb, and I've been picniking some photos to look like Halloween. So that's been fun.

I've been trying (stress TRYING) to tell my mom more about myself but she always acts like she disapproves. Well, more like she just makes it about her. So I'm almost giving up that because it's not taking me anywhere.

I'm falling less and less in love with him. I don't know why. I saw him on the bus not that long ago and he looked all emo. At first, not gonna lie, I was kinda happy to picture myself with an emo dude, but then he didn't talk to me and the image turned into him just passing me by in the hallway. Disappointment lurks in the air... (Halloween spirit just bursts out of me it's great!)

Anyway, so that's what's been happening to me in the last few weeks.

Fun fun.

It's pouring out. Minnesota's usually really beautiful, today it's more then that. It's absolutely gorgeous. No just kidding I just really wanted to say that! It is pouring though. But I don't know, it could be gorgeous out. I haven't looked out the window in awhile. Well, this has been interesting...

Today was alright. I'm still being ignored by Bee. She won't tell me some thing's she promised she would. Like who she was dating for awhile, why she was sad last night, AND where she was the whole day. Certainly not with Rachel and me that's for sure. UGH I'M SICK OF THIS!!! Seriously though, it really sucks. Madi Dwel hasn't stopped asking "where did you get that?" ever since after my birthday and I'm trying this new thing were I don't lie or be AS sarcastic to people. They stopped knowing when I was kidding last year and I lost all my guy friends. (No thanks to Morgan...)

I don't know if I've told you but Morgan sucks. Oh I have told you? Well I'm telling you again. She sucks, she sucks, she sucks, she sucks. She's the reason I lost so many of my guy friends. Also reducing my chances of ever having a boyfriend. Ever. She makes me feel like a bad person infront of everyone. She always says to me, "Haha, Emma, he said the boys stand up! Why haven't you stood up yet?" stupid immature things, but everyone laughs and says, "yeah" and gangs up on me. But when I say, "Morgan, why aren't you standing?!" everyone looks at me like I'm an idiot. "Jeez Emma," god, I hate the world.

"And I was like, why are you so obsessed with me?" Morgan's favorite song, Obsessed. (she wishes)